NOPE!!

Well it officially hit 70 days of nothingness and decided to go to the dr to get my blood drawn.  October 21 was the day and also my sweet niece was born!  The doctor was so fabulous and I'm excited to have her as my doctor.  We went over so many things & questions...pee came back negative.  The best was when she asked "do you feel pregnant"  honestly, yes I did but was it just mental?  She did do an exam both internal and external and made a comment about my uterus but don't remember what she said.  The game plan was if NEG blood test then starting Provera the next day to get going again.  The next day...nurse called....negative test.  I had a feeling that was going to happen.  I didn't know what to believe. If I was, if I wasn't.  Who knows?!  I started Provera 10-22 for 7 days.  The first day it made me SOOO sick.  It was like morning sickness all day.  The whole week was just rediculous and boy I was moody.  I had read online that Provera can take up to 3 weeks to get started after taking & also to "prevent" while on the pills.  My dr didn't tell me any of this but to be careful we didn't do anything. 

Friday, Nov 8 came.  Throughout the week I was guessing why I hadn't started STILL.  I didn't understand how my always normal body is being so wacked out.  But I still assumed we weren't pregnant although I was still having symptoms mainly being soo tired.  This night (8th) we had a yw activity.  I had worn a tight white shirt with a puffer vest over it.  As we were cleaning up the church I went to get a broom and walked into a closet full of stank!!!  I seriously about gagged!!!  My friend was cleaning up too and we were talking about how I hadn't started and what the heck was going on.  I also asked her if that closet stunk to her.  She was confused and didn't smell a thing.  SIGN 1    Then I get home and take off my vest and tell Craig-look at my stomach (and I weighed myself this morning and lost 2 pounds that week with only working out 3 days) So I had only gained 2 pounds since the summer.  This was not my typical stomach-"doesn't that look like a baby pooch!!!"  SIGN 2    We had ate soup for dinner at 5:30 about and it was 11pm and I was STARVING!!!  In fact, all week there were times that I felt so hungry and even woken up in the middle of the night a few times  SIGN 3     Then I ask, ...Craig, how strong was your feeling?  "I've never had that strong of feeling and assurance except when I knew we were to be married"   SIGN 4   
The next day we took my neighbor out to lunch for a girls' pampering day-she's due anyday-one girl mentioned guacamole and instantly I looked for the exact sandwich to order that.  And it came with a side pickle.  Mmmmmm    SIGN 5      Saturday after lunch thing we were headed to the mall.  It was about 5pm and I could hardly keep my eyes open while driving there.    SIGN 6          
That night after the mall I asked Craig to take me to the $$$ store to get mailers.  While at the checkout the little tests were screaming my name.  I slipped one in the bag.  No one knew.  I get home, pizza is on the table but I just have to take that test!!!  I rush in the bathroom, get the pee, put the test on the toilet and walk out to wait-they take 5 minutes.  About 1 minute later Craig goes in the bathroom.  DON'T GO IN THERE!!! I yell.  He was confused and saw what I was talking about.  As he was walking out I was ready to face the shame-he makes fun of me for buying so many tests (in my defense it had been since the neg blood test since I did one)  I say, "Please don't say there are 2 lines"  Craig-"Um, there's 2 lines"!!!!  NO WAY!!  I run in there-sure enough.  2 PINK LINES   DEF PREGNANT.  Dollar Store test with 8pm at night and bright & clear as can be.  Now what?!!!!